It’s funny how life works sometimes. Between the craziness of the holidays, being pregnant and sick and just life in general, some things have come up that have really made me think about priorities and what I really want in this life I’m living. I haven’t had an easy path so far in my life and some day maybe there will be fewer mountains to climb but right now, I’m happy for the blessings that I’ve got.
One of the first things that happened was my grandmother passing away last fall just after our Disney trip. I’m not very close to my family but was saddened by the news and will miss visiting with them when we’re back in Michigan. I’m so thankful for the memories I’ve got with her and know she’s taking care of my little girl until she’s ready to be born next month.
Despite feeling totally terrible for about three months over fall and winter, I’m happy to finally say that I just might be getting better. It took many, many prescriptions and lots of hours of rest but we might finally be past the worst….or so I thought when the boys got Fifth’s Disease. There was no harm to either of the boys – it’s simply a virus you get and have to let it run its course. I immediately consulted my pregnancy books and Google and learned that there are some pretty serious side effects if you catch Fifth’s Disease while pregnant for the unborn baby which of course made me panic. Thankfully the bloodwork’s all come back just fine and we’re again back on track. Fifth’s Disease was followed by pink eye and a weird stomach virus (vomiting included) which I also thankfully missed out on!
Another tragedy over the holidays shook my mommy bones when a friend’s three week old grandson passed away very unexpectedly. I began to reconsider everything I’d already purchased for our baby – was it safe enough, how could I prevent an accident like this from happening to my family and so on. The family’s doing as well as can be expected but it’s something that crosses my mind very often and I know that I’m gearing up to be even more paranoid this time around than I probably was with my first child.
All of these events have really made me think about the people in my life, what I’m doing (or not doing) with my life and how I can get on the path I want to be on. I know it will take a lot of work on my part to let some walls down and allow people in, but I really think it will be worth it in the end. In an instant those people might not be in your life any longer.