When I was pregnant with my first son, I read countless websites with other moms and moms – to – be on them to see what laid ahead for me. I also spent hours reading pregnancy books over and over. I don’t really remember being nervous about anything at all. I knew it was going to be a lot of work and there would be pain involved but having worked with kids for so long, I knew it was very much worth every second. There were little bumps during the pregnancy but overall, I didn’t have “new mom jitters” that I’d read about. The only time I really got frustrated was when my due date came and went with no baby…
It was pretty much the same story when I found out I was pregnant with my second son. Things had turned out well the first time so I had expectations going into things. I’d switched doctors and hospitals so I knew things would be slightly different but the major things like having a c-section and bringing home a baby would still be the same. I’ll never forget the moment laying there on the table in the operating room when they pulled the baby out and there were no sounds – no screaming, no crying, nothing. Only being able to hold him for a few brief seconds before they took him to the NICU was terrible but it was a relief to be somewhere where he could get the attention he needed right away. Those few seconds have totally changed how I looked at my current pregnancy.
This time around, I feel like I’ve been nervous about every little thing in hopes of preventing another NICU visit for this little one. As is with most things, this pregnancy has been totally different than my other ones – the “morning” sickness lasted all day, every day for about four months, I had a terrible cold/bronchitis/sinus issues for about three months, the exhaustion that was only supposed to last the first trimester has never really left and on and on. I feel like I’ve called the office for so many different things this time and make sure to ask if everything’s on track at each and every appointment. I’ve discussed my past birth experiences and tried to make every attempt to not have those experiences again this time. People have said that I’m more paranoid this time than I was the first time and they’re right. As much as I cannot wait to meet this sweet princess, I want her to stay right where she is until her scheduled debut in hopes that I’ll hear those tell – tale screams when I’m lying on the operating table this time.
What did you worry about during pregnancy?